endless HOPE…

endless HOPE…

#2 – endless HOPE…


If you’ve just tuned in, you may want to read the page called “Our Story” by clicking up in the top right…

Oct 13, 2013 – Thanksgiving Monday…the day I actually, finally, started typing.  This was the morning I again glanced back at my mini-journal of scratch notes, mostly two-word reminders to flesh out later – details I had racked my brain for and had started jotting down just a few days after the Celebration of Brandon’s Life.  They were keywords to big and small things alike – things that would pop into my head and I’d jot down, as I wasn’t sure they were recorded anywhere else – a mix of early painful details, alongside miracles, all of which I certainly did not want to forget. 

I have made notes every once in a while over the past two years, as well as lists – trying to think of where all the pieces of info would be – like puzzle pieces I knew I would need to put our story together later, without forgetting anything.  The list of important items just goes on and on – from his friend’s speech, to another friend’s pencil sketch of him, to Facebook comments and pages created, to phone records with time stamps to help me meticulously piece that morning together.  There are so many details of our story that I know will get fuzzier and fuzzier, and I have not been able to bear the thought of anything being left out. 

It’s like I’ve become sentimental about everything – even one remaining white plastic BB hiding in the corner of a ceramic dish in the kitchen (watch for an upcoming post with the BB story – it’s about “Appreciating the Mess”).  Everything seems to have a shred of memory attached to it, making it a critical piece.  Without these objects or keywords, I have felt many precious details just wouldn’t be remembered when I finally sat down to start writing. 

It’s been almost like thousands of little strings tied on the fingers of my mind, that I’ve been terrified would come unravelled and fall away without me noticing until it was too late. 

At last, the official record is starting to be written…and I again feel a surge of that endless HOPE.


<3 Janine Kurtz

14 thoughts on “#2 – endless HOPE…

  1. I read a series of books when they came out that I was reading them and literally having to wait a year or so for the next part of it…..feeling that same way come over me, write Janine write there is going to be some serious power in it and you will never truly know how many, many peoples lives you will touch and help heal through your writings. Gods Warrior Woman has stepped out and so you know the other warriors, us, we surround you! Bless you Janine!

  2. oops meaning the same feeling of I cannot wait to read the next one…….not that it will take you a year….ha ha gotta start doing more then spell check before I press send………

  3. Go for it….the pages of your book are in all those things you’ve stored away for ‘such a time as this’! When something is of God your fingers will be anointed as you type! Blessings on this new venture!

    • Thanks for your encouragement Greta! <3

      • Hi Janine…you mentioned you’d like to drop in to my place…I would love that…I’m flying to Northern Alberta this week to speak at a 3 day Conference in High Level…am deep in ‘preparing my soul’ for that event.. But after November 1st my schedule is more open. Let’s touch bases then….

  4. Awesome Janine! I’m so glad you wrote it all down and kept notes. I’m looking forward to more!

  5. Thanks Janine for having the courage to embark on this step. I know it will lead to more healing for this tremendous wound that all of you have.

  6. Thank you Janine for doing this. Our Hope is transcendent for every situation that experiences the pain of the Fall. May many find hope and inspiration from your God guided thoughts and words.

  7. So look forward to hearing your story and seeing how God has touched your heart. We’ll all benefit from your journey!

  8. Oh Janine reading this is like sitting across the table from you with a big warm mug of tea in my hand. Your voice is so clear and authentic (so truly you) and I LOVE how you write. Love the way you told your story (the “our story” bit), your creativity really shows in the way you structured it and shared the essence of it in such few words. You are truly a creative, made so by our Creator, and what a gift to the world that you are sharing yourself and that endless HOPE here. What an awesome name for a blog. I am officially subscribed to it!

  9. you have got me hooked already Janine…. more more more

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